I have been dealing with an inflamed nerve for the last month causing much pain in my right hip and thigh. This past week in my quiet time, my thoughts wandered to Jacob and his struggle with God. You may remember the story from Genesis 32:22-32 where Jacob wrestles with God through the night. God struck Jacob on the hip, putting it out of joint, leaving Jacob with a limp.
As I spent some time thinking about this my thoughts went to how we each struggle with God. As I have looked back at my life, I can see those times when I have had those struggles with God. What I see is that in each of those times the struggle was over my will. Rather than follow Christ those were times when I either thought I knew better, or simply didn’t want to go where the disciples’ path led.
I realized that the struggles, the wrestling, was the result of my lack of submission. I can also see that while I may have thought I was prevailing, it was only defiance, doing my own thing. The peace that Jesus talks about in John 14, the peace that comes through our faith, only comes with submission on my part.
As my faith journey continues there is less wrestling these days. I would like to think that is because I have matured in my faith somewhat. I do know that as we allow God’s Spirit to work in our lives that we do move closer to that image of Christ that we were created to be.
Have you struggled like I have? Are you allowing God’s Spirit to move in your life? The peace that comes from Christ can be yours through your faith.
Lord God guide us as we struggle. Amen.
Always, to God be the glory!